sunday

i have never felt so alone in my whole life.

my mother is going crazy and on the verge of abandoning me and running off to another country to start a new life

my father is in china having a fling with some whore

my sister is running around in san francisco with her new coworkers having sex with everything and completely ignoring our family crisis

i am stuck in the middle taking call after call from my mother, who is usually sobbing and asking me to save her.

my father ignores my email telling him if he does not respond in 24 hours i will never speak to him again. it has been 25 hours. apparently he doesn’t care.

i wonder if death would be less painful than this.

 

my friends come over and i hear them laughing downstairs, and it is like we are not even living in the same world anymore. i go to sleep early every night just to make the pain stop.